I promised myself that starting next year I would take more effort in making myself look nice. On January, I will be attending my cousin’s wedding and thought I’d wear a dress. The thing is, I don’t really wear dresses. I do wear skirts, but more like a casual sporty type and I think I only wore a kinda formal skirt once. So, I’m going crazy looking for something to wear to the wedding, not to mention I need to lose more weight fast… I’m already starting to read about Fenphedra. Haha! Just kidding! But seriously, I really need to find a dress and get in shape. Anyway, I surfed the net to look for styles and found myself attracted to coat dresses. So, I’m thinking of wearing something a little like this:

Now, I need your honest opinion and please help me decide by answering this pole, you know, with me being on the plus size… And please don’t hesitate to leave a comment if you to say or suggest something. It would really be appreciated!

I’ve been unemployed for three years now. Haha! Yeah, I help make our country’s unemployment rate grow bigger. Oh well, I guess I just tired of those companies who harass their employees in some ways. And besides, I’m not really unemployed but rather self-employed. Yeah I don’t earn as much when I was still in the corporate world but at least I’m not stressed and I can do things in my own time and doing what I love. And for next year, I’m really planning to do more stuff which would help me earn more.

This one’s dedicated to Kianah who posted on my shoutbox and requested for more Indio I tugtog.

Di Mo Lang Alam
by Indio I

Di ako makatulog ng hindi ka pinangarap.
Ikaw ang laging nasa isipan.
At ang akala ko minsan ika’y aking niyayakap.
Sa pag dilat ko ay unan lang.
Paano ko sasabihin sa’yo ang tunay na layunin ng puso ko?

Di mo lang alam, ikaw tanging buhay ko.
Kung alam mo lang, ikaw lang ang iniibig ko.
Di mo lang alam, ikaw tanging buhay ko.
Kung alam mo lang, ikaw lang ang iniibig ko.

Tuwing ako’y napapalingon isa lang ang aking hangarin, ikaw ang laging nasa isipan.
At ang akala ko minsa’y kaway mo para sa akin, yon pala para sayo’ng kaibigan lang.
Paano ko sasabihin sa’yo ang tunay na layunin ng puso ko?

Di mo lang alam, ikaw tanging buhay ko.
Kung alam mo lang, ikaw lang ang iniibig ko.
Di mo lang alam, ikaw tanging buhay ko.
Kung alam mo lang, ikaw lang ang iniibig ko.

Hanggang kailan ako maghihintay?
Ohh sana’y wag habang buhay.
Wag na mag duda, ikaw ang nag-iisang sinta.
At kung akala mo hindi kita mahal, ikaw na ang nanaginip.

Paano ko sasabihin sa’yo, ang tunay na layunin ng puso ko?

Di mo lang alam, ikaw tanging buhay ko.
Kung alam mo lang, ikaw lang ang iniibig ko.
Di mo lang alam, ikaw tanging buhay ko.
Kung alam mo lang, ikaw lang ang iniibig ko.

This reminds me of my Anilao days! We would play this song in the car over and over and over again. And we would all do this dance which we call the “laba” dance. We call it that because we look like we’re handwashing something. Haha! And also, we have the cowboy dance, where we lift our hand and pretend to be spinning a rope. Haha! I miss Anilao and my friends!!!

I’m not referring to cigs, I’m really trying to quit, you know. What I’m talking about are those Chinese menthol sticks. I don’t really know it’s name but sometimes I one of it’s brand names is Bohrer Ding but I don’t call it that because I don’t like the name. Haha! Anyway, I just can’t live without it! I don’t drink meds because I’m allergic to aspirin and paracetamol (and who knows what else) so, I use the menthol stick when I have a headache, which is often. Funny thing is it’s price range, depending on where you it. I buy the big one and it costs P220 in Mercury Drugstore and in Watson’s. It’s P120 in this Chinese drugstore in Greenhills. Then I found out it only costs P80 in this Chinese drugstore in Quiapo and the last time I went to Quaipo, I found a new Chinese drugstore and they’re selling it for only P70. I wonder how much it is in Ongpin and Binondo…

On another note, my sister was advised that some of the best diet pills are the ones being sold in Chinese drugstores. She tried one I think but I’m not sure if it worked. Me, I’m through with diet pills already. I’d rather jog and eat a healthy diet. Really now? Haha!

That’s what my nephew tells everyone when you try to scold him. Haha! When he tells me that I tell him I’m the one who’s going to open the box, referring to the shipping boxes that my mom sent from the US. Then he would forget about what he said and asks me questions about the box. He’s really excited about those because he knows that there are toys in there. Cute isn’t it?

My sleeping pattern changed again. Usually I would sleep around 3 or 4 am then wake up around 12 nn or 1 pm. Now, I sleep around 2 or 3 am and wake up around 9 or 10 am. And I automatically wake up, I don’t need talking watches anymore because my body clock is so precise. I’m not liking it because I need at least 10 hours of sleep so that my brain could function normally. But it’s okay… I think I’m getting used to it already and I’m getting more things done this way. If only I could sleep 12 hours a day and still have enough time to do all the things I want to do… Haha!

I just finished watching Elizabethtown and Orlando Bloom is so gorgeous!!! It doesn’t matter what he is doing or what he is wearing, whether he’s an elf or a pirate, whether he’s wearing tuxedo or plain white shirt and jeans, whether his hair is long or short, whether he’s cleanly shaven or not, he is so cute!!! And I’m pretty sure all you girls would agree with me! I especially like him with unruly curly hair that’s a little long and unshaven face like the one on this picture.

I took this test and here’s the result

What This Outfit Says About You

You are a confident person. You don’t need a certain outfit to feel good about yourself. You prefer to stay casual. You rather speak for yourself than have your clothes speak for you.

 You are energetic and adventurous. You are up for anything, and you love being surprised.You are often cheerful and optimistic. You approach life with curiosity and an open heart.

 Your high end fashion designer match: Chloe

 Your must have accessory: A funky red bag

The Outfit Test

So true! At least from my point of view. Haha!

I read this article about Francis M and his having leukemia and it made me think about myself, not that I’m paranoid or anything. The article mentioned that some of the symptoms of having leukemia are shortness of breath, paleness and fatigue. And here are the general symptoms that I found on the net:

* Anemia — Children with leukemia often have fewer than normal healthy red blood cells and platelets. They lack enough red blood cells to carry oxygen through the body, which causes a condition called anemia. Children with anemia may look pale, feel weak and tired and bleed and bruise easily.
* Recurrent Infections — Although children with leukemia may have a high number of white blood cells, these white blood cells are immature and don’t fight infection. Children may experience repetitive viral or bacterial infections. They often have symptoms of infection such as fever, runny nose and cough.
* Bone and Joint Pain — Pain in bones and joints is another common symptom of leukemia. This pain is usually a result of the bone marrow being overcrowded and “full.”
* Abdominal Distress — Abdominal pain also may be a symptom. Leukemia cells can collect in the kidney, liver and spleen, causing enlargement of these organs. Pain in the abdomen may cause a loss of appetite and weight.
* Swollen Lymph Nodes — Lymph nodes under the arms, in the groin, chest and neck may become swollen when leukemia cells collect in the nodes. Lymph nodes filter the blood.
* Difficulty Breathing or Dyspnea — With T-cell acute lymphocytic leukemia, leukemia cells tend to clump together around the thymus gland. This mass of cells present in the middle of the chest can cause pain and difficulty breathing. Wheezing, coughing or painful breathing requires immediate medical attention.

And here’s what I’ve been experiencing or had experienced in the past: shortness of breath, paleness, fatigue, and lately, bone and joint pain, which I think may be the cause of the cold weather and lack of exercise. I think I had anemia but because I was really pale before and since the red blood cells are the ones carrying oxygen in our body, this resulted to my shortness of breath and palpitations. And my monthly periods were really heavy which may have caused this but it regulated and the other symptoms stopped when I took ferrous sulfate supplement for about a month. But now the palpitations are back but just a little. The fatigue, there came a time when I got tired very easily without really doing heavy activities. So, what do you think? Am I just being paranoid? And I definitely don’t want to go to a doctor but I’m predicting I’m going to sometime soon. I guess it’s time for me to look for term life insurance rates now huh? Haha!